all you had to say

was no.

and that would have been enough.

but, you couldn't do that.

maybe your lying to yourself.

or your lying to me.

either way

this one thing. is ripping us apart.

it's not the first time.

it's not the second time.

this is a cycle of you fucking me over.

for the same person.

you were the first girl. i ever gave my heart to.

you might not be my first love.

but i gave myself to you

completely. and now.

we repeat our cycle.

idk why i don't end it.

i'm shaking from anger.

rage.

i want to hit something.

i'm trying so hard not to be harsh.

idk. maybe i'm not giving you a chance.

i'm trying now.