The Invention of Lying

so i went to the movies today.

with ryan his mom and garnett

and it got me to thinking.

what if we really could only tell the truth

that whatever we thought, came out.

that we couldn't lie to someone for the sake of their feelings

i think it would be interesting.

the whole world should do it for a month

say whatever you honestly mean...

i wish that i could do that to my friends.

and that they could do it to me.

but that's unrealistic.
as humans we are taught to lie
and omit the truth

we worry too much about other people's feelings
losing our own thoughts to society's
we can't express what we truly mean

hmm its just something to think about.

you should honestly go watch the movie.

it will make you think about how different the world would be if you couldn't make things up.

i need

more free time.

cause everyday is the same.
wake up school football practice home sleep
repeat

at least now i have a reason to wake up every morning ;)

buut

usually i'm so tired lately. i don't want to do anything buut sleep.

sleep is good. and sleep is fine.

but i would rather have time for my friends.

ugghh and i'm physically broken apart. my knees are giving out.

and something weird happened to my foot.

oh well

in other news...

i'm happy.

andd i don't think things could get any better.

minus the whole no free time thing...

i wonder what i'm doing this saturday.

i wanna do something really cool all day.

but a certain someone i know is ALWAYS tired

and doesn't wake up until 1 -_-







so my mom is thinking about working a second job.

and i honestly think that's a bad idea.

cause she's already overworked.

but the main reason she says she is weary of doing it.

is because she doesn't want to leave me with that much free time

not gonna lie. the girlfriend is definitely coming over.

but besides that. i don't really have much else that i could possibly do.

i'm not into drugs or any of that crazy stuff...

and i don't like people sooo. yeah

"i just sit there and let the thoughts flood
and i remind myself its alright its all good its love
but its not though"

i have been told.

to write a blog.

and write a blog i shall.

RECENT NEWS!!!

i just noticed something incredibly depressing.
and i'm kinda mad at myself for just noticing.

i wanna know what happened. but i truly doubt you'll tell me
apparently, we aren't as close as you said.

or maybe you got the wrong idea somewhere along the way.
or maybe i did. i don't know. i told you i'll be here.

i still am.

OKay, anyway.

besides that recent shocker.

my life is going pretty good.

my stepsister subbed at my school haha.

that was intereresting...

my mother made an incredibly rude comment.

i'm trying to adjust to life and she just makes it harder... like WTF

uhhh she snapped at me again. although i tried to get better about telling her where i was.

she blames me cause she didn't check her phone until 12.

not my fault. so i won't carry it on my shoulders.

I HAVE THE MOST AMAZING GIRLFRIEND.

seriously.

this other chick is getting annoying.

i'm trying to be friends. but your being difficult.

whatever.

i don't trust people. period.

i never really did.

but now its just getting worse.

self centered bitches.

as my trust goes away. i become less cynical. i guess that's good...

football = pain

my back neck and knees are destroyed.

oh well. one more year. no track season though.

cause track is scary. hahaha

now i'm just rambling. i think i'll post that relationship thing soon. probably tomorrow.

another postponement

of my 5 parts/keys to a relationship.
i'll get to it eventually...

sooo this week. has beeen. AMAZING

i finally got my SO back...

although i had to wait 4 days to ask her.

cause we're weird like that -_-

i think we have hung out almost everyday... it feels so right




this weekend has been, cool.

i spent from 5-10 and from 2pm- 1am

with my band nerds

it was a very different experience...



some people said some things that kind of caught me off guard

it made me realize that people notice when i'm not there.

and things change.



but i mean. i still have my friends..

just i could be a better friend :)

i'll work on it.



anyway i think i'm working out my largest looming situation.

perhaps..



i'm happy.

really really happy.

and its delighting.



i hope this weekend is free, cause i want some time for hanging out with my nonschool friends.

thee game should be fun. we should do another chill thing... it would be fun


ladeda no complaints.

feels good.