i'm tired.

and confused. and i feel like blogging.

ah for the first time ever today. i wanted to go to church.

also, my mom let me drive her car to school. :D wonderful day.

this is officially hour 15.

uhh. i dislike this.

everything about it.

and i'm falling for this one girl. i think i'm going to break my nose. :/

anyway. i'm still not over you.

every time i look at you. i have emotions as various as a rainbow.

don't know if that explains anything.

but i honestly don't care anymore.

i want to be happy again.

UHHH. we finally got a group.

there are 7 of us. maybe more will add.

its pretty cool.

i like single lines.

gives more distinction.

i'm thinking about dropping all of my AP classes.

especially next year.

cause i just don't care anymore.

school has become pointless.

i hope it gets better.

i'm tired of my "friends"

i think i'll make new ones.

my cousin is getting married in like two weeks. to a beautiful DOCTOR

lucky son of a gun.

my head hurts from thinking so much.

right as i get rid of problems.

more occur.

nature=chaotic

Back to School blog

so today was the first day of school in the new building.

new buildings don't really make a difference to me.
although it is a bitch to walk across the school every damn period.

lets go through the basics before i get into my FEELINGS :O

i woke up late. so i was late the first day of school
lucky for me. they spent the whole time in homeroom so i didn't miss anything

1st period- AP history pretty cool way to start the day ya know.
coach mckendree is pretty cool.
since its AP history. its alot of... nerds.

2nd period- Band. same people as usual. i'll have fun fucking around not really paying attention
+ there is the one cute girl in percussion section now. this maybe a good thing.

3rd period- pre cal. LAURA! finally i have another class with her.
one of my few female friends. i think i have like a total of 3 that i really consider friends.
plus i have some other amazingly cool people.

4th period- latin. gay class. i'm switching out of it regardless.

5th period- football. nuff said

6th period- physics. one cool class. my lil big sis is in here. she might just make it worth dealing with that uncontrolled anger.

7th period- AP english. dropping it. too many gay ass nerds.

so today in total was uneventful. after getting to school late. nothing happened that doesn't usually happen on a school day. i went through my schedule without any problems really.

but i'm realizing how hard it is for me to truly account for other people's feelings.

some people i do try. some people i'm tired of trying.

in fact. i want to move away. for not particular reason at all.

tired of seeing the same people all the time.

and for some reason. everytime i see certain people. i can only remember the bad.
the good no longer applies to them.

and something i said in my pre cal class finally makes sense.
once someone fucks me over. in my book. they are forever fucked.

i don't forgive people. and i don't forget.
i know that's not a good thing. but i don't really care anymore.

i am who i am. i have found people that accept that.
maybe i'll find more. maybe i won't.

either way... "i can be by myself and enjoy the company"- kanye west.

AHHHH

i haven't had a deep thought in soo long.

i'm making progress :)

in life... there are some really odd people.

people you will never understand.

nor do you care to understand.

i'm one of those people :D