wow..

today was... different...
i got stood up... twice
stopped by cops twice
shared an awkward dinner with an ex
so confused about life
right when everything seems to be working out
i'm slapped with someone new
o and btw no phone...
i'm tryin and tryin but.... no progress
its whatever... just gonna let things flow...

Track

so... for the first time... i'm realizing my own potential
i want to succeed... i'm tired of losing...
getting beat when i should win is bullshit
so from now on
100% track
400 meter runner
no matter how i feel... i will win
i want varsity
i want a lettermen
fuck the opposition

Pain

pain is something that i personally embrace
it is not something that i look for
rather something that finds me
it is always there
waiting for me around the corner

it always comes in different forms
physical emotional mental
it attacks from all sides
and i currently have all three

although i have all three...
this pain has finally allowed me to be myself
the self that hasnt come out since... 7th grade
i've always had to hide something for fear of being rejected

4 more months of taking shit
i made a new resolution
to just smile through it
its gonna be a good 4 months

first blog

so today's my mothers birthday.
the day after valentines day.
i'm single.
and i'm happy
really really happy
laughing smiling giggling grinning
things that use to hurt make me smile
like... she said she almost missed my voice...
how the hell can you almost miss something?
o well... i thought it was pretty funny.
tomorrow is monday. Presidents Day
a national holiday
and we have school... that sucks ass
i wonder how long until a barack obama day...