homecoming.

sooo everyone that i follow has pretty much written something within the past 6ish hours.

mostly commenting on homecoming... or other things concerning that.

so why not follow suit?

btw i'm postponing the 5 steps to a relationship. obviously.

i have two major problems.

even if i win i lose.

so what's the point of trying to alter the course of the ship?

anyway.

homecoming.

this year was the year i was LEAST interested in anything... apathetic almost.

i didn't go to the game, or the dance, or any of the homecoming parties.

in fact, after school on friday, i didn't contact anybody from school

except my SO... whose not really my SO.

i played marvel ultimate alliance 2 for a couple hours.

then went to this killer house party.

it was great.

amazing homecoming night. minus it had nothing to do with it actually being homecoming.

ahhh i have still yet to deal with problem numero uno. although new ones occur.

i''''''''''''ll avoid it for another month. just cause ii'm cool like that...

i hate knowing so many people.

cause eventually. people started getting connected, and that's where problems start.

(this has nothing to do with what your probably thinking of)


so i got the most random message from the most random person.

and we talked about something things that should never happen.

but at the same time, very very plausible.

but honestly. i think its below what i'm capable of.


i dislike blogging, cause i always forget what i said.

and so much of this is my current feelings, and then i feel completely different later...

like for instance, i could possibly say now... "i just want you to be happy"

when i mean... "i just want you to be happy... with me"

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wtf am i talking about? bye

So...

there is this little website called postsecret.com

its a blog, established by this guy, where people send their secrets.

and they send them in the form of postcards...

alot of these postcards deal with selfimage, love, relationships, drugs

that kind of stuff

andd it seems like most cards i can identify with in some way.

alot of the ones i can identify with are the ones about love and relationships...

the more i think about it. the first time i was in "love" wasn't really love...

cause it never felt like this.

or any of the other numerous feelings i have had over the past 2 odd years...

alot of the cards are about how much the people wonder if they had told someone they loved

them how it would change their lives...

...sometimes i wonder what would happen if i didn't run my mouth so much...

cause. honestly i feel all this shit we have been through is my fault.

whatever, when things are good... they are really good. like last night.

and when they are bad... ah well. things only get worse.

i'd rather do good. its alot better.





















gap action.

i wonder how long it will take you to realize i wrote a new blog :D

i'm rambling and its fun...





on a completely different note.

my friend is an IDIOT.

he's about to ruin something good over something that doesn't really matter.

^^^ do not ask me about this part. i will not tell you.

maybe its just me. but people's priorities are all out of wack.




my personal keys to a relationship... i'm digging a hole :D

1. Attraction

2. Trust

3. Common Interest

4. Communication- very important.

5. Maturity- something i lack...

^^^ this you can feel free to question about.

cause i don't feel like explaining my personal feelings on each one.

that'll be my next blog.

this is direct as i can be.

give me a sign.

let me know that your willing to try again.

cause i am.

your worth it.

and its getting pretty obvious.

that we're meant for each other.

i have tried liking other people.

but they just don't interest me like you do.

if you want to start over. fine.

but, just let me know you feel the same.

if not... completely ignore this.

the more i think about it.

the more i think that we never tried to work through any of our problems.

whatever, i'm severely confused.

buuuut i am putting myself out there.

please catch me.

one more.

hug
kiss
relationship

"the sky might fall, but i'm not worried at all"

so lately. i have been talking to girls with boyfriends...

that way i don't feel anything other than friendship...

i don't really have anything to blog about... but its been so long since i've done one. its about time...

i'm currently sick.

i think i have the swine.

llkjld;a it sucks.

i get to drive more... although my own damn car would be fantastic.

i run in circles because its fun.

not because you told me to.

HEY LOOK A VOLVO

i'm tired... posting a random assortment of things.

p.s. i love you