mistakes

you never know what one is until after the fact.

i've been cutting ties to a lot of people recently.

i haven't really found too many new people worth keeping around.

once football is over, i don't know what kinda person i will be.

but i do know. i'll probably be alone.

i pretty much left the only girl i've seriously been with in high school.

it hurts. a lot.

but somethings you just have to do.

i'm distancing myself.

football is my life. every morning day and night is spent on football.

its strange how much of my focus is on a predominantly physical game.

i am the smallest person of the field. i must know the game better than anyone else.

anyone. i'm a very confused random happy little boy.

i have fun at school

no homework

no stress

andd all my little problems will eventually work themselves out.

i'm too young for headaches.

mood swings

i have the worst mood swings.

it makes it hard to make any substantial decisions.

what i want one day is not what i want the next

so for now. i am. just here.

and i will continue to be here.

as long as i don't have to make anything substantial before the end of football

i think i'll be good

cause football is routine

and routine is what i require.