headaches

sooo idk why.

but i'm doubting every decision i ever made right now.

as in, everything.

i want my life to be different, but it's like i'm too late to change anything

i'm floating along.

it's like, do i just give up. and go along.

or try to change things.

but if i change things, i'll regret it.

it's getting to the point where i'm not happy when i go home.

and going home is just a metaphor.

as in when i'm not immediately engaged in an activity

i'm sad. or rather. just not happy.

you and i. aren't progressing.

whenever it seems like we are actually getting somewhere.

we get in a fight, and have to start all over again.

hopefully i get to tell you this before you read this.

buuut last night, after you went to sleep or whatever.

i just sat down. and wondered.

can i really trust you.

i could at one point.

but then shit happens. another guy's in the picture.

i mean i get the feeling that you think your missing something.

and i'm more than willing to let you go, if that's whats best.

cause i don't want to compete for your love.

it's a situation i can't help.

i'm really just not into people right now.

i want to disappear.