why should i expect things to be different

first. a warning. i'm writing out of extreme emotion.

soo don't take it completely seriously.

i have never been that close to crying.

i don't cry. btw.

why would i expect things to change.

why would i think that anything i could say would change what you think.

why would i even try.

why would i throw away my happiness.

for you.

just to put a smile on your face.

that you don't even appreciate.

you can't live day by day.

i can't live without you.

we have to fix something.

everything is fading.

thing is. nobody knows where i was today.

sooo its just me.

no help. no advice.

i'm pissed. i'm sad. i'm angry. i'm everything negative.

for 2 hours. it seemed like everything would work.

like it really didn't matter what was going on outside.

then you crushed it.

said it would never happen again.

don't you understand, things between us are better when we still see each other.

your trying to live some fairytale.

i'm no prince.

i'm just here.

for you.

tell me to come back again. i will.

no matter how much it hurts my pride, or dignity.

cause its for you.

if you knew how much i loved you.

maybe things would change...