Headache of Death

soo i usually don't get headaches.
from things that i should get the fromm.

like football and other extra curricular activities that usually give them :)
buut apparently. somewhere along the way. i acquired headaches of death

i mean, they probably have some fancy names. that i don't care to know

but currently. one is residing in my cranium... i haven't used that word in forever.
andd it was brought on by not wearing my glasses.

Now. lets think about that. i throw my head at 200 pound people. everyday for about 3 months
but no headaches. andd i get one from NOT wearing my glasses when i wake up. i mean. seriously

the body is retarded.

in other news...

alot of people around me are having really shitty times in life.
and i'm not really in a position to help.

don't get me wrong. my life isn't all pie and cake either.
but i have reached a plateau i think.

cause things just don't seem important to me at all.
theres a word for it... i think its apathy? without emotion

haha i was right

ap⋅a⋅thy

1.	absence or suppression of passion, emotion, or excitement.

i think i'm leadin towards suppression... it works for now.

urrm each day that goes by. i think its getting worse. NOT suppressing you.

and that was bad phrasing...

i wish that i could be everybody's everything.
cause i think... emotionally i could do it.

since everyone wants to be my friend now.
and when i say everyone. i mean all the people i care about way too much to be just another friend

i feel like we're all living our lives like myspace. and if i'm not on your top. i'm just not making the cut.

oh well. i need to reach out to people more.
but lately it just hasn't been working. i think i'm too late...

I NEED A CAR!!!!

idk if i have posted that before... since i hadn't blogged in quite a while.

oh and while i'm writing this what feels like a tremedously long blog...

i just have to say i'm tired of ghetto people.
now ghetto people doesn't have a color

cause everyone thinks its cool to be ghetto, right? WRONG

in case you haven't read a book lately.
ghetto is a state that you should be trying to get out of, not embracing.

that's from a shihan poem i think...


ignore the he's sick of apathy part. cause he cna get over it

that's pretty much. the complete and honest truth.

this has gone on long enough... i'll post another some other time.