bad day

sooo i just had the worst day.
i have had in a very long time...
and the sad thing is... i have no idea why

like... i had something moderately bad happen
i broke up with my gf
buutt.. i've done that before...

and i really dont think thats the root of my problem
maybe its my indecision
on what happens next.

like... its gettin progressively worse
i can't even decide why i broke up with my gf
i just had to. today. for no reason really.

now. i'm talking to someone i thought i never would
and i don't understand why.
maybe cuz i'm tired of trying.

on the positive side...
i got invited to the 7on7 tournament.
Yay.

back to negativity.
i think i'm on my man period.
cuzz. i dont see anything happy happening anytime soon.

i think if i can just get past this weekend.
maybe, just maybe i'll make it.
o. and i really need to talk to my dad.

like. obviously avoiding the subject hasn't helped.
i havent seen him in a month. at least
not good.

the worst part about this...
is that usually. one person could make me feel better
i'm not soo lucky this time.. considering how i dont want anything, from anybody.

summer come quick..