on my mind.

idk why, but i have been thinking about being single.

and it's not in a negative aspect about my girlfriend.

it's more about how much i'll miss her.

how i'll miss how we understand each other.

cause even if i find the most chill girl in the world.

she won't know the little things to do that'll make the day special.

she won't know how to calm me down,

how to leave me alone when i want to be left alone,

how to talk when i say go away.

honestly, i'm not looking forward to starting over.

for multiple reasons.

idk what its like not to have a serious relationship. or a main.

preferably, we'll be getting back together after a short break.

i try my hardest not to be a liar, though i'm good at it(i gotta have one good trait)

so how do i approach another female as anything but a fling.

and i'm just not good with "hoes" or "slutty" girls.

i like relationships. but i don't know if i can be by myself for a month. or two.

and people tell me, that i should be able to just wait for her to come back

be happy hanging out with my guy friends, and just being by myself.

i'm just not that kinda person. i like interest. the opposite sex is there for a reason.

all in all.

i wish my baby didn't have to leave.