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me sideways :)

this shall be a wrap up of my weekend.
it SUCKED.
one of the most inspirational i have ever known in my life was buried.
i had to sing in 2 of her services.(i can not sing to save my life)
all of the people i am close to regarding church i had to watch cry
and i could not express the emotions i had in the same way.

for some reason. death is no longer a problem for me.
i dont think it ever was. people die.
its unexpected. its painful. but its a fact of life.
however, the constant crying, and the morose stature of everyone around me
unbearable.
sooo i drink their pain away.

i havent talked to my dad in 2 weeks, since i told him how i truly felt.
dont think i feel the need to have that burden also...
uhhhh some people just have no boundaries.
"sorry" does not fix anything.
i think it should be stricken from the english language.
because "nice" people use it as an excuse to be assholes.

(for that special someone)
btw... the thing i wanted to talk about...
its how you think it wud be cool to hang out with my friends, without me
WE BROKE UPP BITCH. find your own friends to hang out with.
and if their lame... thats your fucking problem.
its funny how you were coming over... until you found out i was there.
yes it was "weird" its suppose to be, seeing as you broke my fucking heart.

back to everything else...
i let a valuable friend slip away...
for something really stupid... and dumb.
that shouldnt have happened. its my fault.
i apologize. a heartfelt sincere apology.
i hope you talk to me again... sooner than later...

uhhhh i think i pretty much covered everything...
no wait... today.
today was... indifferent.
by the way, love, you didnt fuck up as bad as you think.
me and the fam cleaned upp the majority of the house.
for my mommy. so she can feel better.
that felt nice.

i bought my "Wu-Tang" shirt from Hot Topic.
o and i saw will's purple jacket bahahaha
the guy kinda freaked me out
he kept saying stuff like "cool dude" or "nice, nice"
i think it was because i'm black :/

That wraps my craptacular weekend.
it ended better than it started... by far...
i'll try to write again sooner...
i've been slacking :/